My journey with NXIVM and ESP is complex and spans more than 15 years, but I figured I might as well start at the beginning and share how I got involved in the first place. A lot of people like to look for weakness or desperation when it comes to people who join organizations that promise personal growth. I think there are a lot of reasons people might seek out programs that provide insight and tools for greater success, and none of them are good or bad. However, an individual's motivations will certainly inform their experience and may make them more susceptible to internalizing teachings in a dogmatic rather than informative way. Perhaps part of the reason I have the perspective I do is I never thought there was only one answer. I've always appreciated and sought out different perspectives and ways of understanding the human condition. I did find NXIVM to offer a highly advanced and effective education that helped me tremendously, more than anything I'd experienced before or since, but I never thought it was the right path for everybody. I'll speak more about that, but first here's the story of how I got involved and what I had going on in my life when I was first introduced to the program.
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I witnessed an interesting social experiment on my American Airlines flight last night. It was a late flight, departing at 10:30pm and arriving at its destination after midnight. I say this because both the passengers and crew were likely tired and eager to get home. We were about to take off and the flight attendants were scurrying to their seats. A woman across the aisle from me had her head on her tray table, presumably sleeping, so a flight attendant tapped her and told her to put it up. She responded, somewhat under her breath, "Why is it there if you can't use it?" My immediate assumption was that this woman doesn't fly much, coupled with the fact that she probably felt a little embarrassed and groggy from being woken up. The male flight attendant, however, took issue with her tone. He leaned into her face and said, "You want to know why? You want to know why? It's a safety risk, that's why!" She reacted by telling him he didn't have to be rude about it, and that just amped him up even ...
“Nature loves courage. You make the commitment and nature will respond to that commitment by removing impossible obstacles. Dream the impossible dream and the world will not grind you under, it will lift you up. This is the trick. This is what all these teachers and philosophers who really counted, who really touched the alchemical gold, this is what they understood. This is the shamanic dance in the waterfall. This is how magic is done. By hurling yourself into the abyss and discovering it's a feather bed.”
― Terence McKenna
Sometimes it can feel overwhelming to fight a narrative that is so far-reaching, so emotionally-driven, and supported by so much money and political power. It can feel like screaming into the wind, like the truth doesn't matter, or that no one will ever know what actually happened. But, then, I get messages about or from people who are able to see through the hype and hysteria, and it gives me hope. Sometimes people apologize for making judgments, which I find even more moving. It's so rare these days. It should be celebrated when we see a mistake in our perception and seek to rectify it. Instead, we promote condemnation and humiliation. I hope we can change. I hope my story can be a part of that change. Here are a few messages that have given me hope on hard days, and lead me to believe that my fight for truth and justice isn't in vain. As they say, the only way to eat an elephant is with small bites.
Love, truth, understanding.
Can't we all just find these inside us, not judge or hate, but accept and love, know how to see truth without the lenses of media and society, and understand without judgment or bias.
Humankind. What we all are, regardless. So let's live up tothat word, that challenge. Let us be kind humans.
After my life was decimated by a false media narrative (just Google NXIVM), I've come to realize that the only way to get the truth out is to do it on my own terms. But this community isn't just about me and my story, it's a place where anyone who has been 'cancelled,' defamed, wrongfully accused or even imprisoned can share their stories. It is a space for anyone who cares about free speech, due process, and constitutional rights. You know, just what this country was founded on. Nbd.
I wouldn't wish what I've been through on anyone, but I've learned a lot and it's made me who I am. I hope my voice can be a source of strength and hope, and rise above the chorus of haters who do nothing but complain and blame. I believe we all make choices in this life and we can either use them to build wisdom or resentment. I choose the former. I suggest you do too, but it's really up to you.
I will talk about NXIVM, DOS, being investigated by the FBI, my past life in Hollywood, Battlestar Galactica,...